無法入睡

我躺在床上,一時無法入睡。

室友們都回家去了,只有我一個人留在宿舍。在BBS上雖然talk得很愉快,但是一關電腦,身心都覺得疲憊已極,只想找個女孩子共暖被窩;向來孤單的我心想:春天到底什麼時候來?

「哈羅?」

一個女性的聲音響起,很輕,帶了點試驗性質;我張大眼望了望,隨即感到好笑;自己的房間自己清楚,哪裡會有女人?唉,幻覺都出來了,擁緊棉被,還是趕快睡吧。

「哈羅?」

又來了,這次聽得真切,真的是女人的聲音。我幾乎跳起來,緊張地問著:「誰?誰在我房裡?」左手摸到燈開關打開,整個房間剎時亮了起來怪....怪了?什麼都沒有?

那個聲音又響起來,「別慌,也不用怕。我沒有惡意的。」頓了一頓,「我來你房間的原因是....是....」

「是什麼?」我有點顫抖著問。

「是因為....我喜歡你....」她的聲音逐漸變細,尾音幾不可聞。「我真的很喜歡你,所以才鼓起勇氣出聲招呼;希望不要嚇著你了。」

我在床上坐著,背靠著牆,棉被拉到下巴,努力的揉揉眼,沒錯,房間裡沒其他人,但聲音似乎從每個角落響至....「奶到底躲在哪兒?奶說奶喜歡我是什麼意思?」

那聲音悠悠嘆了口氣:「我也不知道為何喜歡你,算是緣分吧!我跟著你已經有一年了。喂,不用找了,你看不到我的,我根本沒有身體呀!」

我呆呆地搖頭:「不對,這一定只是個夢。現在是晚上,所以我在作夢。」可是這個夢卻又如此逼真。我把棉被拉到下巴,向著空氣問:「奶沒有身體?這什麼意思?奶到底是誰?」

「我只是一個精神體啦!人類都叫我們什麼來著?鬼或是幽靈啦。」

「奶....奶到底是什麼東西....我不相信神鬼之類的,奶不要騙我。」

「你相不相信並不重要,」她調皮地說,「真的有鬼存在,而且就在這裡,而且那個鬼喜歡你,想要蠃得你的友誼!」

「以這種方式開始?怎麼可能。」我被嚇得有點生氣,「你說你跟了我多久?一年了?跟著我上課、去圖書館、吃飯?」

「嗯,還有上廁所、洗澡....我最喜歡你衝浴時沈醉在熱水裡的樣子了。現在我最想做的,就是陪你睡覺羅!」

「什麼?你說什麼?」我吃驚道。

「我說:我想陪你一起睡。你要我嗎?」

我吞了口口水,這算什麼?倩女幽魂?雖然我二十好幾了,但是跟女鬼睡覺?「我....我從來沒有跟女孩子睡過。」

她帶著同情的口吻說:「這我知道,我就喜歡你的純潔嘛!所以....你希望我有什麼樣的身體呢?」

一時反應不太過來,「你的意思是:你可以變成任何我想要的樣子?」

「是的。」

我張大嘴巴,好一會兒才說:「聽起來很不可思議。」

「會嗎?為什麼?」

「我也不曉得,反正就是覺得不可思議。這太瘋狂了,我一定還在作夢吧?地球上有二十五億的男人,怎麼可能單單有個女鬼半夜在我房間裡,還問我希望跟哪種身體睡覺呢?」

「其實我碰到過不少男人....只有你能讓我心動。」

我真不知道是該感覺倒楣還是驕傲。「但是,為什麼奶會喜歡我呢?」

「人類喜歡什麼人需要理

由嗎?」她不答反問。

「我想不需要。」

「剛好我們鬼也一樣。」她又調皮一笑,「好啦,你喜歡我長什麼樣子呢?」

我有點遲疑,跟鬼玩,會不會減陽壽?但是她說話的聲音聽起來蠻真摯的,說不定真喜歡我呢!好吧,姑且一試,反正我平日行善,佛祖會保佑我的。「我喜歡....跟我差不多高的。」

「那容易。」她說:「再來,膚色呢?」

「膚色嘛!」我喃喃地說:「白種女人蠻不錯的,但是膚質差了些....黑女人我又不太喜歡....對了,變那種有點天然黑的皮膚,像是印度那一帶的。」

「沒問題。頭髮顏色呢?」

「黑的。而且要又長又直!我希望你看起來有點印度女人的樣子。」

「但是大多數又高又苗條的印度人五官都像西方人耶!」

「真的嗎?好吧,就這樣沒關係。」

「隨你羅!」她又問:「那你喜歡什麼樣的身材的呢?」

「唔,中等胸部,大奶頭的如何?」

她輕笑出聲。「這真是出乎我意料之外,你竟然會喜歡這種身材的;無論如何我照做就是了。那體格呢?瘦弱的,輕盈的,還是很強壯的?」

「苗條,但是帶點肌肉。」我說:「不過不要那種練出來健美的肌肉啦,是很自然運動產生的。」

「體毛?」

「我真不敢相信....」突然感覺好像在餐廳吩咐師父要煮幾分熟的牛排,加上多少的調味醬一樣....體毛?

她又笑了:「對不起啦,我知道這有點瘋狂;但是我必須依你的希望產生....你希望我有腿毛、陰毛、腋毛嗎?」

「喔!」我想了一想,然後自己也笑了。「我知道人類要自然一點比較好,但是我想要一個沒有毛的身體....」

「好吧!我可以變成沒毛的女人。」停了會,「我要現身了哦,你準備好了嗎?」

「等一下。」突然發現自己幾乎是脫光睡的,「先讓我把衣服穿起來。」

「沒穿衣服有啥關係?我不能變衣服出來,所以我也是裸體的;再說我跟了你一年,早就把你身體看得一清二楚了。我喜歡你沒穿衣服的樣子。」

我嘆了口氣,說道:「好吧。」

就是那麼簡單;上一刻,我還孤獨地一個人待在房間裡;下一刻,她冒了出來,站在我床前。就著床頭燈看,她真是美苗條、健康的黑皮膚,小小的胸部上覆蓋著兩圈比膚色更黑的乳暈,長長的黑髮如瀑布般直瀉腰際。她以皇后般的幽雅伸出手來,我遲疑了一下,迎向她的手;我又吃了一驚,原以為鬼是虛無飄渺,或是冷冷冰冰的;但是她的手卻是如此的溫暖,皮膚如此地光滑,就跟我們人類的一樣。

她對著我微笑,然後拉我的手去碰她嬌軟的胸部。「來吧!來摸摸我,來摸摸這個你創造出來的軀體。」

我可以感覺手在顫抖。「我真不敢相信....我是在作夢吧?」這真的不是我的幻覺嗎?她的胸部是那麼的真實,那麼地溫暖,還帶了濃濃女性身上特有的幽香。如果這是夢,那也做得太過火了一點。

她跨了一部,坐上了床,整個身體靠在我的肩上;我可以感覺到她的乳間碰到了我上臂。她吐氣如蘭,說著:「就算是作夢也沒關係....你何不現在盡情享受,把是不是夢的問題,留待天亮再討論呢?」

「好吧!」雖然親眼見到,

我還是懷疑著:「喂,奶不是什麼離家出走、又會變戲法的未成年少女吧?不要愚弄我哦!」

她嘻嘻一笑,忽然又隱形了,「你看我是不是在愚弄你呢?」

她就這樣不見了,真是奇妙啊!但是在幾秒之內,有「人」輕輕地碰我;嘴唇有著潮溼的感觸,一雙手纏住我的背,兩團肉球貼著我赤裸的胸膛;我眼前的的確確沒任何東西,但感覺又如此真實....

我躺回床上,她還是繞著我;我開始回應她的吻。她離開我的唇,開始吻我的脖子,手指在我身上恣意探索著。終於她找到了我內褲的褲帶,焦急地褪下這個障礙。我抱住看不見的她,在她背上愛撫著。

我跨下的器具以最快的速度升起,然後被一股潮溼而溫暖的物體所吞噬。我還是看不見她,但是可以感覺出她在我的懷抱中,享受著我的處男的獻禮。這麼緊,這麼有力,像是有東西在吸著。我全身肌肉都繃了起來。忽然,一股想像不到的痛快,像電一般流過我的身體,一陣狂喜的痙攣,好久沒有得到宣洩的白色精液像火山爆發噴、噴、再噴,一次比一次噴得更高。

這個痛快好像持續了幾世紀之久,然後她的唇又回到我嘴巴上,胸部又貼回我的胸。我們再度接吻,這就是做愛了吧,我心想,全身骨頭似乎都軟掉了。但是在一分鐘內,下部又不安分地逐漸地挺了起來,好像剛剛沒有損失半點男性的精力,可以重來一樣。

似乎一整晚我們都重複這樣做著,每次都欣喜,每次都完美,每次都很不可思議,而且在每次過後,我總是可以生龍活虎地馬上再來。假如這是夢,那就是我做過最不可思議的春夢了;我寧願這樣夢一輩子。

隔天早上,我在滿室陽光中醒來。好久沒有睡得正麼沈了,好像整個星期的疲勞都在昨夜調息過來。昨天晚上我作了個好奇怪的夢....這個怪夢,呵呵,想起來就好笑。我拉了拉被子,想賴一下床....奇怪,我手上碰到的是什麼?誰在我棉被裡?我猛然睜開眼,她那頭長髮就在我眼前幾公分遠。

「你醒啦?」

「我醒了!」我回答。我醒了嗎?是不是還在作夢?「奶....奶是誰?哦不不不,奶是什麼東西?我們昨天晚上真的....真的....」

她把我的手拉到她小而柔軟的胸部上。「真的....真的什麼?」她咯咯一笑,「我們昨天晚上是不是真的做愛了?當然是羅!而且做了一整夜呢!就一個沒經驗的人來講,你的表現十分不錯哦。至於我是誰?你還記得吧,昨天晚上還沒幫我取名字,我們就急著玩樂了。如果你問我是什麼東西....」她忽然有點悲傷地講:「好久好久以前,我也是一個有名有姓,健康正常的女孩子呢!」

「好久好久....是多久呢?」

「有幾百年了吧?我也不太記得了。時間對沒有軀體的人而言,是沒有意義的。當我還是女孩子的時候,我很羨慕傳說在空氣中自由飛翔的精靈、女巫什麼的,但是一變成了虛無的靈魂,反而懷念有軀體實實在在的生活了。謝謝你幫我創造出這個身體來。」

我沈默了一會兒,「有沒有其他像你一樣的女孩子?我的意思是,像你一樣的....嗯...女鬼....變成人形的?」

「可能吧!人死了以後都會變

成靈魂的,應該都有一個天使來帶領她上天堂....我的天使不知道為什麼沒有來,害我一個人孤孤單單地在人世間漂流,每次看到別的天使帶領著靈魂到天堂去報到,就覺得好羨慕。」她悲傷地說著:「我流浪了好幾年,在很多地方修練,法力逐漸增加,好幾年前我發現可以藉助人類的希望,把我變成真實的形體;一年前又遇到了你....看來我要感謝那個失約的天使了。」

「聽起來奶度過了好一段孤獨的時光。」

「還好啦!」她開朗的說:「能和你在一起,我就要謝謝上帝了。」

我不知道該如何表達我心內的感傷,她曾經一個「人」,孤單的過了幾百年,這個孤單的滋味我是知道的,非常的痛苦、空虛。我伸出手去,擁緊她,希望能去除她孤單的感覺。

唔,我也不知道是怎麼回事,一會兒之後,我才發現擁緊的部位,正好是她細緻的胸部。她的雙手在我的前臂上來回遊動。我看著她,現在的她是真實的,一點也看出是女妖或女鬼;在晨曦的照射下(別問我鬼為什麼照了陽光不會消失,我也是昨兒夜裡第一次碰到鬼的),除了嘴唇和碩大的乳圈外,她的皮膚是溫暖的深褐色。她幽雅地甩甩頭髮,轉過身來,一隻手不安分地溜上了我的裸胸。

一面看著這性感美女,一面感覺她的手指在皮膚上的動作,我很快地又興奮起來。她一言不發地伏到我身上,對著我的堅挺,慢慢地坐了下去。剛開始她很慢,很柔,柔的我想發狂;然後她也感覺到我的需要,動作逐漸加快,狂野,尖尖的指甲拼命在我胸上畫圈。我再也忍受不住了,抱起她,轉過一個位置,把我的男性特徵深深地埋進她體內。再一次的,我把白色的種子播進她的容器中,我倆在狂喜中輕喊,一起到了天堂。

我下樓買了早餐,剛吃飽,我從她的眼中發現她又要了。我把她的手從我的頸子上撥下來:「不行,我和同學約好了,待會要去寫SA的作業。」我看著她,這女人真是漂亮呀,把她留在寢室會不會有問題?

我心中突然閃過一個念頭:「奶說奶會法術,那奶的法力有多強呢?」SA作業又多又難做,如果....唉,我這種想法真要不得。

「法力?哦!其實我法力很弱的....」她說:「前幾年修練完,我就慢慢摸索,發現如果我能積存到一定的能量,要施展法術就很簡單。本來我常施法作弄一些神經兮兮的傢伙,後來碰到你,覺得可以把法力作更好的運用;所以這一年來,我幾乎不施法,直到昨天,把我自己弄成這模樣,法力幾乎消耗殆盡....我想我大概得這樣過一輩子直到老死了。」

我沒有說話。聽起來她作了一個很大的犧牲,但是對象是我,值得嗎?我再度凝視著她,為她的高貴及剛才心中的念頭感到羞恥。終於我出聲打破沈默:「奶有名字嗎?」

她愉快的說:「你可以替我取一個新的呀?現在的我跟新生的一樣。」

「但是....你本來出生時是叫什麼呢?」

「彭絲妲....」

「這個名字很好嘛!你介意我叫你絲妲嗎?」

「也好!」她笑了,「我真高興我選了你。你知道為什麼嗎?」

我微笑:「哦?為什麼?」

「因為,你是一個真正有風度的男人。」

「謝啦!

」我笑著,眼睛不由自主地又溜向她美妙的胴體。「我該走了,我會寫一整天程式,晚上才回來....奶呢?打算做什麼?」

「我也不知道,這樣好了,你叫我做什麼我就做什麼。」

「喂,我可不希望你一天到晚待在我寢室裡,當我愛的奴隸,找點自己的事情做做嘛!」

「好吧!」絲妲想了一想,「也許我會到市中心逛一逛。」

「去逛逛也好....」我突然想到一個嚴重的問題:「那衣服怎麼辦?我沒有女孩子的衣服耶!」

「別擔心。你忘了嗎?我跟你尺寸是一樣的,你的衣服我應該都能穿。當然啦,我得先跟你借套衣服,幾天而已....我想你不介意!」

「但是錢呢?錢怎麼辦?我只是個窮學生。而且,你沒有身份證或護照哇!最近抓非法外勞抓這麼兇,奶一出門可能馬上就被逮捕了!」

「別擔心。」她笑著說:「只要我待會兒寫幾封信就萬事OK了!來吧,我們先去挑衣服。」

我拉開衣櫥,幸好有好幾件牛仔褲。我抓出其中一條深藍色的丟給她,然後皺著眉說:「我沒有女性的內衣褲啦!」

「不要緊,暫時而已嘛!」

「那你喜歡穿T恤還是襯衫?」我一面問著,一面在衣櫃裡翻,心中卻想著,我的牛仔褲穿在她身上不知是什麼模樣。

「白色、圓領,有三顆釦子的那件好了!」她喊著。我突然驚覺,她真的跟著我一年了,連我有什麼衣服都清清楚楚的。

我將衣服遞給她,看著她把襯衫自頭上慢慢套下,我又開口了:「絲妲,你確定你要穿這個?」

「是呀!有什麼不對嗎?」她調整了一下衣領,問著。

「我覺得....不太適合!」

「會嗎?我覺得不錯呀!」

「可是你的皮膚黑,穿這個,這裡特別明顯。」我比了比胸部,「不信你自己看看。」

她在門後的小鏡子上照了半天,笑著說:「你不喜歡這個效果?」

「我當然喜歡啦!」我說。

「這可以啦!你還沒看過我還活著的時候,穿過什麼樣的衣服呢!趕快吧,你自己說得去寫程式的,不要讓別人久等了。」

我離開以前留了一串鑰匙,還有身上的一千多塊給絲妲。在系館奮鬥了一天,等到要回寢室的時候,我有點希望她已經離開了。當然,絲妲很迷人,但是畢竟不是人類呀!

我走到寢室門前,就聽到我的喇叭流洩出輕柔的巴洛克音樂。打開門,迎面而來的是絲妲的笑臉:「程式寫得怎麼樣?」

「還好。」我說。事實上,今天幾乎沒什麼進度,寫程式時我一直在想著她。

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Ghost IwenttobedSundaynightfeelingabitdepressed.Weekendsdidthattome,wi

ththeknowledgethatotherswentoutandhadfunwhileIdidnothing,andithadbeenthekindofwarmspringweekendthatpeoplesayisripeforromance.IwaslyingonmysidewonderingifIwouldeverfindagirl,onearmundermypillowandtheotherarmhuggingthecoversagainstmyearwhenIheardaquietvoice.

"Hello?"itsaid,soundingtentative.Itwasasoftlyfemininevoice,buttherewasnobodyintheroomwhocouldhavespoken.Afterabriefstartle,IignoredthevoiceandassumedthatI'dimaginedit.

"Hello,"itsaidagain,morefirmly,justasmythoughtshadbeguntodrift.

"Whoareyou?Whatareyoudoinginmyroom?"Ianswered,sittingupinthedarknessasIgropedforthebedsidelamp.Thelightflashedon,partiallyblindingme,butIcouldseewellenough.Nobodywasintheroomwithme.

"Don'tgetupset,"thevoicesaid,pleading."Idon'treallyhaveaname,Iguessyoucanpickone.I'minyourroombecauseIlikeyou,andI'vedecidedthatit'stimeformetointroducemyself.Ihopeyoudon'tmind."Isatinmybedwithmybackagainstthewall,staringaroundmyemptyroomandseeingnosignofanyone.Thevoiceseemedtocomefromnowhereinparticular."Whereareyouhiding?ComeonoutwhereIcanseeyou.Whatdoyoumean,youlikeme.""Justthat.I'vebeenfollowingyouforayearnow,andIlikeyou.Astowhyyoucan'tseeme,Idon'thaveabodyyet."Islumpedinmybedandpulledthecoversbackuptomychin."Thenthismu

stbeadream,"Isaid."Whatdoyoumean,youdon'thaveabody.Whatareyou?

""IguessI'maspirit,orsomethinglikethat.""Whatdoyoumean,youguess.Besides,Idon'tbelieveinspirits.""Itreallydoesn'tmatterwhatyoubelieve,"thevoicesaid,withachuckle."I'mme,I'mreal,Ilikeyou,andI'dliketobeyourfriend.""It'sahellofawaytobeginafriendship,"Isaid,sittingupangrilyinbed."Followingmearoundfor,whatwasityousaid,forayear?Wherehaveyoufollowedmeanyway?""Everywhere,mostofthetime.I'dliketosleepwithyou.""What?""WhatIsaid,Iwanttosleepwithyou.Whatkindofbodywouldyoulikemetohave?""I'veneversleptwithagirlbefore,"Isaid,feelingveryunsureofmyself.

"Iknow,"shesaid,soundingsympathetic."I'dliketomakelovewithyou.Whatkindofbodydoyouwantmetohave?""Areyousayingyoucanmaterialize,thatyoucanlooklikeanyoneIwant?""Yes.""Thatsoundsobscene!""Why?""Itdoes,that'sall.""Theremustbeareason."Isighedandslumpeddowninmybed."Idon'tknow.Thisistooweird!Maybeit'sjustthatdreams,fantasies,thingslikethat,maybetheyaren'tsupposedtocometrue.Shouldn'tIhavetoearnmyfriendsandacceptthebodiesnaturegavethem?""Usually,"shesaid,soundingserious."Butyoudidearnme,andsinceIdon'thaveabodyrightnow,youhaveachoiceabouthowyou'dlikemetolook.""Whatdoyoumean,Iearnedyou?""Youearnedme,ju

stthat.I'vefollowedmanymenovertheyears,andyou'rethefirstonewho'sinterestedmeinalongtime.

"Whyme?""Dopeopleneedreasons?""No,Iguessnot.""OK,sohowdoyouwantmetolook?"Ihesitated,andthendecidedtoplayalong."Howabouttallandslim,aboutmysize.""Easyenough,"shesaid."Pickaskincolor.""Idon'tknow,"Isaid,andthenchuckled."Suntanslooknice,butIthinktanning'sastupidactivity.Howaboutnaturallydarkskin,likepeoplefromIndiaorsomething.""Haircolor?""Black,Isuppose.Anythingelsewouldlookoutofplace.Makeitstraightandlong,andIguessyourfeaturesshouldlookIndiantoo,youknow,oriental.""ButmosttallslimIndianshavewesternlookingfeatures.""Theydo?OK,ifyousayso.""Whataboutmyfigure.""Howaboutmediumtosmallbreasts,withbignipples."Shechuckledagain."Thisisfun,Iguessedthatonefromthekindsofgirlsyouliketowatch.Howaboutbuild,skinny,lightlypaddedormuscular?""Slimbutmuscular,"Isaid."Befunctional,notdecorative.""Bodyhair?""Idon'tbelievethis,"Isaid,flusteredbythethoughtoforderingahumanbodythewayyou'dorderamealinarestaurant.

Shechuckled."I'msorry,Igessthisisabitweird,butdoyouwantmybodytohavehair,pubichairandarmpithair?""WhatchoicehaveIgot?Imean,it'sstupidforwomentoshavetheirbodies,butIguessIliketheideaofahairlessbody.""OK,Icanmakemehai

rless,"shesaid,andthenpaused."Thataboutcoverseverything,readyformetomaterialize?""No!"Isaid,suddenlyawarethatIwasnaked."Letmeputsomethingon.""Whybother?Ican'tmaterializeclothing,onlyabody,soI'llbenude.Anyway,I'vefollowedyouaroundforayear;I'musedtowhatyoulooklikewhenyou'renude,andIlikeit."Isighed."OK."Shewasthere.Itwasthatsimple.Onemoment,Iwasaloneinmyroom,andthenextmoment,thereshewas,standinginfrontofmeasIsatinbed.Shewasbeautifulinthelightofmybedsidelamp,slim,dark-skinned,withevendarkerareolasthatalmostcoveredhersmallbreasts,andlongblackhairdowntoherwaist.

Shetookasteptowardsmeandheldoutherhand.Itookit,anditwaswarmandsolid,asrealasmyown.ShesmiledatmeasIlookedather,andthenshepulledmyhandtoherbreast."Come,feelme,enjoythebodyyou'vehelpedcreate.""Istilldon'tbelievethis,"Isaid,myhandtremblingasItouchedherbreast.Itwassoftandwarm,realflesh,andveryfeminineflesh.

"WhatcanIdotoconvinceyouthatI'mreal?""Idon'tknow,"Isaid.

Shesatonmybedbesideme,herthighagainstmine,herbreasttouchingmyarmassherestedherarmaroundmyshoulders."Isuppose,"shesaid,speakingsoftly,"Isupposeitdoesn'treallymatter.WhynotjustenjoyafunnightoffantasyandletthequestionofwhetherI'mrealwaitforthelightofday?""OK,butI'vegottogotowork

tomorrow,youknow.""Don'tworry,Ipromise,you'llwakeuprestedandreadyforactioninthemorning.""Thenconvinceme,"Isaid,gettingoutofbedandturningtolookather."Convincemethatyou'remagic.""OK,"shesaid,grinning,andthendisappeared.Shewasgone,butinseconds,Ifeltasofttouch.Lipstouchedmine,handsslidovermyback,andwarmbreastspressedthemselvesagainstme.Itwasthestuffofpurefantasy,butitfeltsoreal.

AsIsatbackonthebed,Igaveintothefantasyandbeganreturningthekisses.Therewasnothingtoseebythelightofmybedroomlamp,yetIfeltawomanontopofmeasIlaydowninbed.Herlipskissedmyneck,herfingerstouchedmychest,andIstrokedherinvisibleback.

MypenisrosebetweenmylegswithanintensityandspeedunlikeanythingIcanremember,andthenitwasengulfedinsoftmoistslidingwarmth.Ilookeddownandsawnothing.Myhandsrestedonnothingtoeachsideofmyerectpenis,butIcouldfeelit.IcouldfeelherbodybetweenmyhandsandIcouldfeelherbodysurroundingmypenis.

Mycuriositywasoverwhelmedbythesensation.ThepressureinmypenismountedtolimitsI'dneverexperiencedinmysolitarypleasures,andthenIfeltanorgasmlikenothingI'deverexpected.Itroaredthroughme,itmountedhigher,androaredagain,sendingwavesofpureundilutedpleasurethroughmybodyasmypenisslidinandoutoftheinvisiblesoftvelvetofherbody.

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stedalongtime,andthenIfeltherlipsonmymouthandherbreastsonmychest.Wekissed,Islidmyhandsoverherinvisiblebody,andIwonderedwhatwashappeningtome.Innotime,Ifeltmyerectionreturning,andtherisetoanotherorgasmsweptmythoughtsaside.

Itseemedliketheentirenightwentonlikethat,oneimpossibledreamlikeorgasmafteranother,eachperfect,eachsatisfying,andeachleavingmerestedandreadyformore.Ifitwasadream,itwasthemostincrediblysexydreamI'veeverhad,andifitwasreal,therewasnowayIcouldreconcileitwithanythingIknewaboutreality.

Mondaymorning,Iwokeupawareofherbodypressedwarmlyagainstmine.Herfannywasagainstmyhips,herbackagainstmychestandmyfingerswereonherhardnipple.Icouldsmellher,andwhenIopenedmyeyes,Icouldseethebackofherheadonlyinchesfrommyface.

"Areyouawake?"sheasked,inaveryquietvoice.

"Yes,"Ianswered."Who,whatareyou?Didwereally...?"Ibrokeoffflustered.

Shechuckledandheldmyhandtohersmall,softbreast."Didwereallywhat?Wereallydidmakelovelastnight,almostallnight,ifthat'swhatyouwanttoknow.Forabeginner,you'reprettygood,itwasfun.AstowhoIam,Idon'thaveanameyet,butyou'rewelcometonameme.WhatamI?I'mnotsurewhatIamnow,butIwasbornagirl,averynormalgirl,alonglongtimeago.""Howlongago?""Hundredsofyears,andit'sbeenacenturyorsosinceIla

sttookhumanform."Hervoicesoundedsad."WhenI'minhumanform,Igetsodisgustedwithpeople,butwhenI'maspirit,Imisshavingabodysomuch.""Arethereotherslikeyou?

There'saword,asuccubus,isthatwhatyouare?""Asuccubus?I'veplayedthatroleattimes,andI'lladmitthatitcanbefun,butit'snotsomethingtodedicatealifeto.Idon'tknowifthereareotherslikeme.Iguessit'spossible,butI'veneverfoundanyevidenceofanyexceptinfolktales.""Itsoundslikeyou'vehadsomelonelytimes.""Ihave,"shesaid,andthentookalongbreath."Youknow,inallthoseyears,I'venevertalkedaboutitwithanyoneelse."Ididn'tknowhowtorespondtoher,butIlikedthefeelingofherbodyagainstmineandIlikedthewaysheheldmyhandtoherbreast.Shestrokedmyforearmwithherhand,andthensatupbesidemeandlookeddownatme.Herskinwasawarmbrownintheearlymorninglight,exceptforherdarkbrownlipsandthedarkcirclesofherlargeareolas.Shegracefullyshookherlonghair,smiled,andslidahanddownmychest.

Itwasexcitinglookingatherandfeelingherfingersonmyskin,andwhenshenoticedmyexcitement,shewordlesslystraddledmyhipswithherthighsandslidherselfdowntoengulfme.Shewasgentleatfirst,sittingonmyhipsandmovingeversoslightlywhileshesmileddownatmeandfingeredmychest,butasmyexcitementmounted,shebegantorockharder,andthenIcouldseethatshew

asexcitedtoo.Ipulledhertomeaswenearedasharedclimax,andtheexquisitetouchofhernipplesonminesentmeovertheedgeaswekissed.

Afterbreakfast,Ithinkshewantedtomakeloveagain,butIstoppedher.Ipushedherawayasshetriedtohugmeandleadmebacktobed,andthenIconfrontedher,standingfacingherinthebedroomdoorway.

"Look,"Isaid."Whoeveryouare,I'vegottogettowork.I'llbelateasitis."Herbeautifulbrownbodywasverytemptingasshestoodnakedbeforeme."Yousaidyoustartedasanormalgirl,thenbecameaspiritorsomething,andnowyou'reverymuchagirl,butwhatthehellareyou?Howdidyoubecomeaspirit?""Magic.""Right,"Isaid."Thetroubleis,thattellsmenothing.""Iwastrapped,myfatherwasamonster,hewantedtoforcemetomarryforhispoliticaladvantage,andImightaswellhavebeeninprisonthewayIlived.Worse,Iwasinlovewithaboy.Underthosecircumstances,wouldn'tyoutrythings,anything?

Idid,Ifoundanoldbook,awizzard'sbook,Ithink,andtheresultwaswhatIamnow.""Whatelsecanyour,uh,yourmagicdo?""Notmuch,notnow.I'vediscoveredthatthelessuseImakeofmymagic,thebetteritis.InthefirstfewyearsafterIearnedmyfreedom,Ifooledaroundwithitallthetime,anditgotboring.I'velearnedthatinthelongrun,it'smorefuntoplaybytherules.I'vealsolearnedhowtousemymagicpowerstotemporarilynullifythemselves,andlatel

astnight,afterImaterialized,Ididit.Now,I'mallbutpowerlessuntilthisbodydies."Ididn'tknowwhattosay.Itsoundedlikeshe'dmadeahugesacrifice,anditsoundedlikeshe'dmadeitsoshecouldlivewithme.Ilookedatherforawhile,tryingtounderstandher,andIfeltabitlamewhenIfinallybrokethesilence."Doyouhaveaname?

""EachtimeI'vetakenamaterialformforanylengthoftime,I'vetakenanewname.Youchosemyform,youmayaswellnamemetoo.""Butwhatnamewereyoubornwith?""Beryl.""It'saprettyenoughname,doyoumindifIcallyouthat?""OK."Shesmiled."I'mgladIchoseyou,youknow?""Why?""Becauseyou'reagentleman.""Thanks,"Isaid,lookingatherbeautifulbodyasshestoodinfrontofme."Look,whatarewegoingtodo.WhatamIgoingtodowithyou?""Idon'tknow.""That'scrazy.I'vegottogotoworktoday,whatwillyoudo?

""Whateveryouwantmetodo.""No!Whatdoyouwanttodo?I'msureashellnothavingyouhangaroundmyapartmentallthetimeassomekindofloveslave.""MabeI'llgooutandlookaroundthetown.""What'llyouwear?""Togoout?Idon'tseemuchpointinwearingclothesaroundthehouse.We'rethesamesize,youknow.I'mnotusedtowearingmen'sclothes,butthesedays,IguessIcould.DoyoumindifIborrowsomeofyourclothes?""Whataboutmoneyandidentification?Nowdays,youcan'tverywellrunaroundtownwithoutmoney.Don'tgetmewrong,you'reveryprett

y,andsofar,you'vebeenlotsoffun,butyou'realegalnon-person,andthatposesproblems.""Don'tworry,"shesaid."Ihaveafewletterstowriteandthat'llbealltakencareof.Let'sgetdressed."Ibackedintomybedroomandpulledoutapairofjeansforher,thenhesitated."Idon'thaveanygirlsunderwear.""That'sOK.LasttimeIhadabody,theyhadn'tinventedmodernunderwearyet.Quitefrankly,Idon'tseemuchpointtowearingitanyway."Shesteppedintomyjeansandpulledthemup.

"Whataboutashirt,"Iasked,admiringthewaymyjeanslookedonher.

"Withmydarkskin?"sheasked,andthenpaused."Here,I'llshowyou,"shesaid,steppingintomyclosetandpullingoutawhiteshort-sleevedshirt.Itwasaknitshirt,pulloverstyle,withthreebuttonsattheneckline."Howaboutthis?""OK,"Isaid,andthenitstruckmehowodditwasthatsheknewwhatclothingIhadinthecloset.Shereallyhadbeenwatchingmeforalongtime.

Asshepulledtheshirtonoverherhead,Ibegantohavesecondthoughts."Beryl,areyousureyouwanttowearthat?""Why?"sheasked,adjustingthecollar.

"Well,it'snotverymodest.""Whatdoyoumean?""Withyourdarkskin,yournipplesshow,lookatyourself."Shelookedatherselfinmybedroommirror,andthenturnedtomeandgrinned."Don'tyouliketheeffect?""Well,"Isaid,lookingather.Herdarkareolaswerevisiblethroughthethinfabric,andthelumpsofhernipplesst

oodoutclearly."Iwon'tsayIdon'tlikelookingatyou.""ThenOK.YoushouldhaveseenthedressesIworetwocenturiesagoduringtheGreekrevivalcraze.Comeon,asyousaid,you'reinahurrytogettowork."BeforeIleftforworkMondaymorning,IleftthesparekeytotheapartmentwithBerylalongwithfortydollars.IhalfexpectedhertodisappearwithbothbeforeIgothomefromwork,butasIwalkedupthestepstomyapartment,Iheardmusiccomingfrommysterio.

"Howwaswork?"BerylcalledasIopenedthedoor.

"OK,"Isaid,closingthedoorbehindme.Actually,mydayhadn'tbeenveryproductive;I'dspenttoomuchtimethinkingaboutBeryl.

"Sitdown,"Berylsaidasshecameoutofthebedroom."Whenwasthelasttimeyouwentouttodinner?""It'sbeenalongtime,"Isaid,lookingather.Shewasn'twearingtheclothesshe'dbeenwearingwhenIleftherinthemorning;instead,sheworeashortwhiteskirt,perhapsfingertiplength,withasilvercamisoletop.Herhairwaspulledbackinaponytail,andsheworearowoffourringsineachear.

"Likeit?""I'mnotsure,"Isaid,staring."You'reawfullysexylookingdressedlikethat."Thecolorssetoffherbrownskinnicely,andthefabricofthecamisoledrapedgentlyoverhersmallbreasts,hintingattheirshapeinsteadoffranklyrevealingthemthewaymyknitshirthad."DidIgiveyouenoughmoneytobuyallthat?

""Ispentafewofthedollarsyougavemeonfabric,th

enspentabitoftimesewing.TheearringsonlycostfourbucksapairatthatIndianimportoutletinthemall.""Butearpiercing,theydon'tdothatforfourbucksapair.""Ididthatmyselfwithasewingneedle."Imusthaveblanchedabitatthat,becauseshewalkeduptomeandgavemeagentlehug."Don'tworry,I'vegotenoughmagicleftthatitwasn'tanyproblem.""Soundslikeyouwenttoquiteabitofeffort,"Isaid,tryingtocollectmyfeelings."Where'dyougetasewingmachine.""Ididitbyhand,"shesaid,lookingdownatherselfasshesteppedbacktoposeforme."I'veneverusedasewingmachine,andIgrewupsewingmyownclothes.Anyway,thesemodernstylesareprettyeasy."Shesmiled."Comeon,let'sgoouttodinner.Iknowyouhaven'tbeenoutsociallyintheyearI'vebeenfollowingyou,andyouneedit.""OK,"Isaid."Where?

"Shehadaplaceinmind,andIdidn'tseemtohavemuchchoice.Idrovethere,anditturnedouttobeabar,notadive,butaplacewithfoodthatlookeddecentandadancefloor.Therewasevidencethatabandwouldbeplayinglater,butaswewalkedtoatable,theonlymusicwascanned,andthatwasn'ttooloudtopreventconversation.

Wesatatasmalltable,andafterwe'dordered,Berylleanedforwardonherelbowstolookatme.Ienjoyedthewayhercamisolehung,almostbutnotquiteexposinghernipplesasshefacedme."Iguesswe'vegotsometalkingtodo,"shesaid.

"You'renotkidding.Whered

oyouwanttostart."Shetookadeepbreath."Idon'tknow.I'veneverdoneitlikethisbefore.Ialwayseithercompletelyhidmytruenatureorplayeditupalltheway,youknow,appearingfromaburningbushandmakinglikeI'msomekindofangel.""So?I'mgladyouwanttobehonest,butisthattheproblem?""Notreally.""Whatis?""Inaway,Iguessit'smoderntimes.""What'stheproblem?""Freedom.IguessyoucanseethatIliketheideaofbeingabletoexpressmysexuality,andIliketheideathatagirlwholikesaguycanjustmoveinwithhim,but,well,therearesomethingsyoucan'ttakeforgrantedthesedays.""Like?

""Intheolddays,agirlcouldexpectmentosupportherwithoutmuchtrouble.She'dkeephouseandkeepthebedwarm,andhermanwouldearnthemoneyanddealwiththeworld.It'snotlikethatnow.""Right,andit'sworse.Togetajob,youneedasocialsecuritynumber,andtogetanumber,youneedproofoflegalresidenceandemployabilityintheUnitedStates."Shegrinnedatme."Iknow,Ihaven'tbeenasleepalltheseyears.ThefirstthingIdidthismorningwasbuyapostalmoneyorderandwriteforacopyofmybirthcertificate.""What?

Ithought..."Sheshushedme,thencontinuedinalowvoice."IwasborninWyoming22yearsagoandI'mhalfAmericanIndian.MyfolksnamedmeJennySmith,butI'vegonebythenameBerylsinceIranawayfromhome.""Whataboutschoolrecords,thingslikethat.""I'mself-edu

cated,anddamnproudofit!""Doyouhaverelatives?"IaskedasIrealizedwhatshewasimplying."Andwhataboutfriends?Theycouldreallymessthingsup.""They'realldead.Don'tworryaboutit."Thewaitressdeliveredourfood,andsoonafterthat,thebandstartedtoplay,drowningoutanyeffortatcontinuedconversation.IlookedatBerylwhileIate,unsureaboutwhatshe'ddone.Itcertainlydidn'tsoundlegal,butatthesametime,Icouldn'timagineanylegalwayforaspirit,ifthat'swhatshewas,togetalegalidentityintoday'sworld.HadtherebeenaJennySmith?Howhadshedied,andhowdidBerylthinkshecouldclaimheridentity.Iwasn'tsureIwantedtoknow,andinawayIwasgladthatthemusicwasloudenoughtopreventmefromasking.

Thefoodwasquitegood,andthemusicwasgoodenoughthateventhoughI'mnodancer,Iwastappingmyfeetandgentlynoddingmyheadtothebeatofsomeofthepieces.MykneestouchedBeryl'sunderthelittletable,andaftershefinishedhersmallmeal,sheslidherhanddownunderthetableandresteditonmyknee,smilingasshetouchedme.

"Wanttodance?"sheaskedduringthefirstlullinthemusicafterwefinishedeating.

Ihesitated."I'mnogood.""So?Ihaven'tdancedinyears,comeon."Theeveningpassedinawhirl.Shemaynothavedancedforacentury,butshedidknowhowtodance,andbetterthanthat,shewasagoodteacher.Afterashortwhile,Iforgotmyawkwardness

andbeganenjoyingmyself.Berylwasfuntowatchasshegyratedinfrontofme,andIcouldtellthatshewantedmetowatchher.

Asthemusicslowed,Iwantedtoholdher,andjudgingbythewayshedancedinmyarms,shewantedtobeheld.Herfingersgentlytracedthecurveofmyback,andshefeltwarmandsoftasshemovedagainstmewiththebeatofthemusic.

Asthepieceended,shewhisperedinmyear."Let'sgohome.""OK."Isaid,andfollowedhertothedoor.Followingherwasfun.Hershortskirtseemedawfullyshortwhenseenfromtherear,barelydecentbutveryfuntowatch.Itwasalmostdisappointingasweleftthelightsofthebarandwentoutintothedarkparkinglot.

"Thatwasnice,"Berylsaidaswewalkedintomyapartment.Shetookmebythewaistandkissedme,holdingthekissforalongtime,strokingmybackwithonehandwhilesheheldherotherhandonmychest.Ifeltabitawkward,unsurewhatIshoulddowithmyhands,untilIrealizedthatitmustbereasonableformetodowithmyhandswhatshewasdoingwithhers.

"Thatwasnice,"shesaid,breakingthekiss."Ilikethewayyoutouchme."AnuncomfortablethoughtstruckmeasIlookedather."Dowehavetoworryabout,well,birthcontrol?Imean..."Shesmiled."No,butifyouwantchildrensomeday,wecanhavethem.Wouldyouliketodancesomemore?""OK,"Isaid."Whatkindofmusic?""Somethinglong?"Iputonatape,andthensheheldmyhandandwebegantodanceagain.Sh

ewasasensuousbeauty,anditwasn'tlongbeforeIwassexuallyarousedbythewayshetouchedmeandmovedwithme.

"Don'tgetimpatient,"shewhisperedasIfondledherbreastthroughthethinsatinofhercamisole.Shepushedawaymyhand,andforafewminutes,wedanced,facingeachotherbutnottouching.

Beryldancedgracefully,backtome,andIwantedtohughertome,butsheshruggedoffmyarmsandbegantoundomyshirt.Hertouchwasgentleasshepulledmyshirtoff,butsheneverstoppeddancing,andwhenmyshirtwasoff,sheflowedintomyarmsonceagain.

"Youcanundressme,ifyouwant,"shewhisperedasIslidmyhandsoverherbody.

Ifeltclumsytakingoffhercamisole,butshesmiledasIsetitaside,andthenshesteppedbackfrommeanddanced,lettingmewatchthegentleswingofherlongblackhairandthebounceofhersmallbreastsasshemoved.

"You'rebeautiful,"Iwhisperedasshecamebackintomyarms.Herbreastspressedsoftlyagainsmychestaswedanced,andIcouldfeelthefourearringsinherearagainstmycheek.

Shedidn'tanswer,butslidherhanddownmybackandslidafingerunderthewaistbandofmypants.

"Keepdancing,don'tsayanythingmore,"shewhispered,kneelinginfrontofme,stillswayingwiththemusicasshekissedmybellyandundidmybelt.Shegentlypulledoffmypants,andasshefreedmyerectpenis,shegentlykisseditbeforestandingtohugmeandkissmeonthelips.

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ssedagainsheraswedanced,andshesmileddownatitandpetteditbeforesteppingbackandpullingmyhandtothebuttonsthatheldherskirt.Iknelttoundothefourbuttons,andthenkissedherbellyasIsettheskirtaside.Unbuttoned,theskirtwaslittlemorethanabandoffabricayardlongandabitoverafootwide,andsheworenothingunderit.

ShepulledawayfrommewhenItriedtoholdher,butshekeptdancing,lettingmewatchtheeroticmotionofherbodyforafewminutesbeforeshefinallypulledmetoherandkissedme.Ourdancinghaddegeneratedtojustswayingtogether,andasIkissedmywayawayfromhermouth,shehuggedmebythebackoftheneckanddirectedmyattentiondownward,firsttohersoftbreastsandhardnipples,andthenlower.

Iknelttokissherbelly,andthenhesitatedaboutkissinganylower.Sheknelttofaceme,herkneestomykneesandherhandsonmybuttocks,kissingmeagainasweswayedtothemusic.Mypenispressedeagerlyintothespacebetweenherlegs,andafteraminute,shepushedmegentlybackintoasittingpositionontherugandthenstraddledmylapandworkedherselfdownoverme.AsIenteredher,shekissedme,hard,andthenleanedback,holdingmewithherhandsbehindmyneckandsmilingatmeaswerockedtotherhythmofthemusic.

Shelookeddownatwhereourbodiesjoined,andIlookeddown,followinghergazeandfeelingabitawed.Islidmyhandsfromherfannyuphersides,andhers

mileturnedtoblissasIbegantogentlytouchherbreasts.

Ilosttrackoftimeaswerockedtothemusic.Myattentionwasfocusedonthemoistwarmthofherbodysurroundingmyerectpenis,andthenanintenselookcameoverherfaceasshepulledmetoherandbegankissing.Herhipsrockedinmylap,andIcouldfeelwavesofmuscularcontractionripplingthroughherfromwithin.Shegasped,andthenIwasgaspingmyself,feelingthepumpingwithinmeasIrockedmyhipsinadesparateefforttothrustmyselfevenmoredeeplyintoher.

Weheldeachotherforawhileafterthat,stillrockinggentlytothebeatofthemusic,butrelaxedandhappyinthewarmafterglowofwhatwe'ddone.

"You'refun,"Ieventuallywhispered.

Shesmiledshyly."Youtoo.Let'sgetintobedandI'llteachyousomemorewaystodoit.".